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[Sep. 9th, 2007|11:45 am] |
hi everyone :D.
inshaallah i will be in istanbul from 15th to 19th sept, so if anyone is there and wants to meet, plz send me a msg.
ramadan mubarak! :) |
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[Jul. 20th, 2007|09:55 am] |
ca
rdboard buns FAKE!!!
i dont know, i still think that thing was true, because its soo CHINA!!! and this move now is soooo commmunn.. :D:D |
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[Jul. 15th, 2007|03:48 am] |
Got myself into a bit of a mess yesterday. I went to that mountain place I love so much near Sarajevo (Barice) for a hike with my parents. Somebody told my dad about a field up there full of blueberries, so we decided to look for them. I separated from my parents about 10 min into the walk because they kept stopping and picking herbs, I met them few hours later and told them id walk all the way back home.
So I went up the path, in and out of forest, picking a full plastic bag and my water-bottle of strawberries and blueberries. When we were leaving I deliberately left my phone at home and forgot my watch, BY THE WAY!
a/w, all of a sudden my mp3player battery died, meaning it was at least 4.30 so I started to go, but there were SOOOOMANY bbs, I kept picking. Finally I started to go and it looked really late, that afternoon sun, thick air, it must have been at least 5.30. I was late and I didn't want to go the same way I came and, I don’t know what happened, I went OFF the path into this field. In the FAAAR distance I could see, I THINK, the place I was supposed to get to.
a/w I started through this field with high grass but it wasn’t taking me anywhere and I heard water so I started to look for it, I got to some stream, then I realized I was too low and I couldn’t see anything, I didn’t know where I was going, so I started up again, grass was so high it was touching my face, I found some ‘road’, but it disappeared into a field of cut grass so I had to go back into big grass, I found some small path to a house but it was just a ruin. I decided to go back to the stream, thinking it has to go somewhere, so I did and all of a sudden im in a forest, this terrible thick forest and I want to walk by the stream but its impossible, there is no path and the trees are too thick. I figure I can follow it somehow through the woods, and I saw a sky appearing throught the woods, but all of a sudden i'm KNEE DEEP IN MUD, my shoes were full of it, all my clothes were muddy, I was screaming and there was NOONE!!!! there, I couldn’t see anyone anywhere, nothing at all.
So I decide the stream thing isn't working and start walking up the hill through the forest, but its so steep I have to hold on to the branches and trunks not to fall, all the time slipping on mud and dead leaves, its wet, I think I rested like 5 or 6 six time, just climbing one hill, I couldn’t breath.
a/w, i'm out of the woods finally and the sun looks like I have at most one more hour till it sets so I start looking for a path, I scan the area trying to figure out where there could be one so I see something and I go in that direction, UP another hill. no path, just another hill in the distance. I see some trees that looked familiar on my right and I go there and I can see the DAMN CITY but im like 3 mountains away, i started crying.
A/w I figure if I just keep going down, I have to get to the city somehow, forget the path, the possible bus-ride, people, houses, everything, just go down and somehow I will end up on the edges of the city. So this area is a little rocky and I start climbing down the rocks and like 5 mins lated I realize I CANT SEE WHERE IM STEPPING, sun is hidden behind the hill and trees, and im walking into the forest again. I start to go back, I figure if I just stay on top where I can see the mountains and trees, I can maybe spend the night somewhere on the open and just find the damn path in the morning. So im at the top of these rocks and I trip. On the rocks. I hit my cheek, my arm, my leg, my knee, my ankle is twisted. I start to scream and cry and kick and im just dead!!!! I must have laid there at least 5 mins, I just had no more strength.
a/w I get up somehow and try to scan the area again. In the distance, but REALLY REALLY far I recognize this one peak, its like rocks put on top of each other, its looks distinct from other things, I remembered it from last year so I decide to go there no matter how long it takes. So I just kept walking towards it and I find some old tire tracks, I decide to follow them, but they’re leading into the woods, I stood there thinking, should I go or not and I realized all this happened because I went OFF the path so I follow. most of the time I was yelling for help and saying ‘halo’, and im in the middle of woods, I cant see anything now, screaming ‘HALOOOOOO’ like a lunatic when someone answered, it was absolutely surreal, I cant even describe how I felt at that moment.
a/w I followed the path and saw these 2 guys with a dog in the distance, I come to them and ask for help and they don’t speak bosnian LOOOOOLLLLL!!!! They’re americans, from denver, colorado and one of them lives here, the other one’s on vacation, they know the path back. So im walking back home through the forest that is a 15 min ride from my home, on a rocky path, lead by 2 young american men, practically talking my head off from happiness. They lend me their phone so I could call home and they helped me when I slipped, they gave me water, we had an amazing chat. We got to their car just as the sun was setting, they took me home. i bought icecream.
So here’s a little list, just as a reminder to me:
- twisted my right, BAD, ankle 2 times,
- branches hit my face and chest COUNTLESS times,
- hurt my right hand really bad, especially my thumb and index finger, cant really move it,
- the entire front of my right calf was covered in blood,
- both of my ankles and feet are covered in red patches and blisters,
- my knees crack when I walk, which I cant really do (I walk like frankenstein),
- scratches all over my face, hands, legs,
- branch poked me really bad in left shoulder and chest and i already have blue circles forming,
- I laid on the rocks and broken branches, in the middle of nowhere, my entire body twisted up, my feet stuck between the rocks for 5 minutes and screamed.
I don’t know what to say. things like this happened to me before, but this was very very extreme. I don’t know, its like im waiting for something really really bad to happen, before I learn my lesson and stop putting my life in danger. This whole ‘adventure’ is like my whole life in one day, I keep taking risks I don’t have to take and putting myself into situations that are just too hard for me, expecting too much from myself, not following instructions and then waiting to be saved by God. I just hope and pray to God that this will be enough to teach me what I need to learn. |
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[Jul. 10th, 2007|10:13 pm] |
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this is where i live (;D)  X is my home and Y is my office. its about 25 mins if there is no traffic, but sometimes it can turn to an hour or more bcuz there really just 2 main streets that run all the way through. i dont own a car, but i have a regular ride so its no big deal, but sometimes i get off midway or something like that and walk home , or walk part of the way because there is a river as you can see and nice places for walking.
ANYWAY, last night i got this idea to walk all the way from office to my home, yes look back at the picture, ALLLLL the way ON FOOT! so i did. :D i cant feel my legs too much right now, but it was A LOT of fun, im only sorry i didnt have my camera with me, which means im gonna have to do it again :D. and soon. :) it took about 2.5 hours (i went on much longer walks to be honest) and at the beginning i really didnt think id make it.
i had some serious overdue thinking to do and i had my most comfortable shoes on and it was pretty cloudy and windy so the conditions were perfect. i had fantastic playlist on my mp3, took off my watch, turned off my phone (turned it back on about an hour into the walk ... lol) and i just walked ... fun. :) |
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[Jul. 9th, 2007|11:28 pm] |
im in a bit of philosophical mood tonight, so bare with me.
i think that the ultimate 'bottom-line' is that nothing beats the truth. and THAT fact is where the ultimate safety lies.
no amount of preparation, rational thinking, planing, brain storming, calculating, analyzing till your brain just hurts, nothing, none of that will beat the true fact which is present in every situation and every relationship and just every moment in life. i never got anything i didnt deserve, and even though i sometimes found myself feeling sorry and regretting some things i'd done or said, it always turned out to be the best thing for me. always. no exceptions.
so, as my brother would put it some time ago: in your face regret! in your face!
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there is only one person on this planet at this moment that i trust and would be able to say absolutely anything to. as it usually goes, we share some very trivial things that are so damn stupid but mean so much its ridiculous, and one of those things is DIE HARD. iknowiknow. anyway, i went to see die hard 4.0 and i was so disappointed it made me want to cry. wth was that? i am SO desperately waiting for sff. |
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[Jul. 8th, 2007|01:15 am] |
and last, but hardly the least, :) i love this movie oh so much:
nicolas cage+meryl streep??? absolutely fantastic!! |
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[Jul. 8th, 2007|01:05 am] |
and i love this picture so much
and the reason i like it so much, i think, is that i cant figure out whats what in it. i mean, is it sky, is it sea, is it sea through sky, is it sunrize, is it noon but the clouds and angle mess with me, maybe its sunset?? ha! i love it!!! :)
here's a (little -883x581) bigger version: http://i19.tinypic.com/4qg7seb.jpg
sorry, i dont know how to make thumbnails in a post :( |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2007|10:23 am] |
i wish i knew how to take my own advice.
i give the best advice in the world, but i dont know how to apply it in my own life. maybe that means i dont really mean what i say, maybe it means i dont really believe in what i say? this is extremely confuzing.
im the last month i have doubted my judgement 2 times! thats not good. not good at all.
help? |
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[Jun. 29th, 2007|10:52 am] |
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i know what is israel state and who jews are. i know what they have done and how many people, they have robbed, killed, ... muslim children, cant get mroe sacred than that for me; but unlike this person, i know what has been done to them and i believe in God and justice and honesty. and i have respect for humanity.
this image offends me.
as a human being which the first thing i am. |
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[Jun. 25th, 2007|05:59 pm] |
There is someone I’ve been, well, in love with, for a very long time. (no kidding lol) things between us have always been very different from anything else I’ve had and have with other men, other people in general. He is extremely important to me for some reason, and I cant even explain it to myself, this thing I feel for him, and especially because he has upset me more times than any other person I’ve even known.
a/w, we recently touched a bit on the subject of ‘marriage’ and the first “reason” he mentined when I asked why he hasn’t married yet was his ‘stutter’.
Appearently the guy stutters when he talks. Now, I’ve known him for, ugh, too long, and I’ve stayed in touch with him longer than I’ve stayed in touch with any ANY other man who is not related to me, and we’ve talked many times and I have never, and I mean NEVER noticed this stutter that he is taking so hard. I remember one time he mentioned it before and I was like ‘wth are you talking about’ and he said ‘well maybe you didn’t notice before’, and just then in that moment, like 3 words later he actually did stutter, but that was the only, the ONLY time I actually heard this.
Im not going to say he is imagining it, because this is not a kind of thing you imagine and im not going to belittle his problem, im also not going to accuse myself of not paying enough attention to him, because believe me, all the attention I have in this world is pointed towards him, but I wish there was some way I could make him feel better about that.
I have a feeling that he is avoiding contact with me because of this issue and I wish I had some way to tell him or at least show him that this really does not mean anything to me, that I would like him and talk to him and ADMIRE him and want to be with him even if he stuttered on every single word he says. He means to me more than I could ever describe and I care for him more than I could ever fish for someone else to care for me. I wish I knew how to transfer onto him the energy he gives to me and I wish that I could make him feel as good as he makes me feel. I wish I knew how to talk to him, but for some reason there is this thing in us that just prevents us from talking honest, raw feelings to the ones we care for. I don’t know what it is, I guess we just care too much what they think about us and fear that they will think less if we show how we really feel. I don’t know. I wish I knew how to talk to him. |
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[Jun. 25th, 2007|12:04 pm] |
~you just killed a helicopter with a car!
~i was out of bullets.
i am so excited about this movie, my head is gonna blow off!!! |
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[Jun. 23rd, 2007|12:50 am] |
www.somethingawful.com is so precious.
Moof: livestock are you going to buy an apple iPhone
Moof: it looks neat as bones but it is as expensive as stones
Livestock: i'm going to buy an apple
Moof: what kind
Moof: golden delicious :)
Livestock: washington
Moof: they are delicious :)
Moof: washington cut down a cherry tree
Moof: like an asshole
Livestock: that was lincoln
Livestock: to prove gravity
Moof: because he was mad that a cherry fell on his head during a thunderstorm because there was a key attached to it
Livestock: and they were his car keys and he wanted them back
Moof: yes
Moof: and that boy livestock
Moof: that boy grew up to be dale earnhardt
Moof: and that is how we have apples :)
Livestock: history is stranger than fiction
Livestock: but always right
i have been in love with livestock for many years. |
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[Jun. 18th, 2007|04:59 pm] |
Sicko.avi
you can watch the whole SICKO movie, its upsetting. i dont know, its weired.
also, i dont believe so much to michael moore, because he takes sides and makes things look the way he wants them to look, but still its pretty ... sick :).
all i can think is that all this is caused by greed.
you can download it FOR FREE, which is maybe the weiredest thing of all. :)
http://files.filefront.com//;7786616;;/ |
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